LIGHT: THE HARDWARE AND THE PROGRAM

I’m really excited to be back because I went to my psychiatrist yesterday. I wanted to share what he said about hearing voices. I asked him what it is in the sense of the brain. I asked him if it’s a neurological disorder. He told me the brain is like the hardware of a computer, and the mind (which controls our thoughts, speaking, and doing, for example) is like the program of a computer. When there is a chemical imbalance in the brain, the mind may “act out”, for example. This acting out is mania correlating with Bipolar Disorder.

So my one manic episode, the second week of September 2018, was a computer program with malware. And as for hearing voices, the jury is still out on that. I’ve been told by three mediums that I am connecting to the other side. And I’ve been diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder one day following my one manic episode. So it’s a toss up, but I have gotten to receive information. There is some proof that I get to be so lucky as to be speaking with the other side of the veil.

When channeling, I often notice how excited they get about my being able to hear them. They often tell me that I need to be responsible. During the first month of hearing voices they often said, “Focus on the task at hand.”
There were many times I was told I have “arrested development”. I was told to use less “demonstrative language”. Today, they frequently use the phrase “difference of opinion”, and this is often in reference to “Clairaudience” vs. “hearing voices”. And I know, because I’ve talked to persons on both sides, that there is a difference of opinion. I just happen to believe it is Clairaudience.

They do request integrity often. They are also excited and very complimentary. I love the excitement, however, I don’t really feel very comfortable with all the compliments. I don’t really believe I am adorable. They get really carried away, and I sort of ignore all of that. They often talk to me about what I am dealing with in a given moment. Like whether or not I should skip the gym tonight. I came home to watch Saturday Night Live and blog instead.

I wish I could find the YouTube video of a strange unexplained sound coming from large clouds in the sky. I watched the video with Joe about one month after gaining Clairaudience. He said it was a strange ominous sound with a high pitch. I said, “They’re saying Hallelujah.” I could clearly hear the sounds coming from the clouds as “Hallelujah”. I asked Joe if he could hear Hallelujah, because it was as clear as day to me, it sounded like a choir of angels. He said he could not hear Hallelujah. It was in that moment that I recognized I might have an ability.

I have been able to enhance my Clairaudience through white noise machines, fans, air conditioners, refrigerators, airplanes, helicopters, and semi-trucks on the highway. I can hear words through the sounds made by these Clairaudience enhancers. It was so strange the first time I could hear a message coming through the sound of an airplane flying over head. I heard “We love you Addi Larson.” And I heard that phrase through airplanes several times when I first started hearing voices. It’s honestly an amazing experience. I don’t think it’s going away, so I have learned to live with it and embrace it. It does make me smile when it happens, because it is such an odd experience.

All in all, I have learned to live with anxiety, depression, and Bipolar Disorder. And I am being medicated for all three. My medications are at good levels and allow me to get a full night’s sleep. The depression medication has put a little pep in my step. And the anxiety medication aides a calm in my life. Talk therapy allows me to be heard. And therapy is where I get some of the best advice I’m getting from anyone in my life right now. I am grateful for Joe, my mother, and my sister, as they each speak with me on the phone daily.

I am grateful for how far I’ve come since the very first voice I heard on August 21, 2018. It has been a learning experience in mainly the area of mental health. I am happy to share my mental health journey and experiences with you in the hope that the sharing will leave you feeling moved or even inspired. If you have any mental health issues, feel free to share in the comments. I love to connect, which is why I share. Until tomorrow, all my love!

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