Today’s Prayer to Passage will be from the book “Heart of Darkness” by Joseph Conrad.

Today I pray, “Dear God, I am experiencing that delight You must have felt in watching everything unfold in my rites of passage to my callings. Those were such moments of darkness for me at times. Thank You for allowing me to see it on the other side. Thank You for allowing me to know the joy a father feels for his daughter in knowing that the dark moments are leading to lighter, brighter days. I love You. Amen.”

Following my prayer, I held the closed book in my hands and opened it to this passage:

“We couldn’t understand because we were too far… and could not remember because we were traveling in the night of first ages, those ages that had gone, leaving hardly a sign… and no memories.”

There is, without question, a night of first ages. I had to allow God’s communication to unfold into my life on my terms, and on God’s terms as well. The word Essenes comes to mind. I felt like I was starting an age of new Essenes, especially around age 33. Yet I did not know who the Essenes were until I heard someone reference them today. This is what I am talking about.

There is an unfolding, as God’s timing is all powerful. Always as a child, and especially as a teenager, I felt this true Power of God. In my twenties, I developed my abilities to communicate with God through signs and symbols. And I had no teachers guiding any of this. God was there through all of it.

I had a foundation of the Christian church and the Bible, and this remains today. Though I now see the “Church” as a way of thinking and being in the world, at all times and in all places, not always a building. In this sense, for the past six years, The Biggest Audience calling has been my church. Inspiring new life through the Love of Christ sounds like a church I would like to create on earth, and this is exactly what The Biggest Audience calling is. But I did not realize this until right now, as I was typing it.

This is God’s all powerful timing. I always knew God as the Creator of all that is and has ever been and will ever be. And this is God. We have these memories, and there is an abundance of those who are developing their own first ages with God, which God is blessing. No one can predict the hours or the places of this Love, as it is free all throughout the world. God had a plan all along. Amen to that.

(The following is an excerpt from, which I looked up when I heard the word “Essenes” as I was typing this response to today’s passage) :

Who Were the Essenes?
Since the archaeological discovery of the Dead Sea Scrolls in 1946, the word “Essene” has made its way around the world — often raising a lot of questions. Many people were astonished to discover that, two thousand years ago, a brotherhood of holy men and women, living together in a community, carried within themselves all of the seeds of Christianity and of future western civilization. This brotherhood — more or less persecuted and ostracized — would bring forth people who would change the face of the world and the course of history. Indeed, almost all of the principal founders of what would later be called Christianity were Essenes — St. Ann, Joseph and Mary, John the Baptist, Jesus, John the Evangelist, etc.

The Essenes considered themselves to be a separate people — not because of external signs like skin color, hair color, etc., but because of the illumination of their inner life and their knowledge of the hidden mysteries of nature unknown to other men. They considered themselves to be also a group of people at the center of all peoples — because everyone could become part of it, as soon as they had successfully passed the selective tests.
They thought, and rightly so, that they were the heirs of God’s sons and daughters of old, the heirs to their great ancient civilization. They possessed their advanced knowledge and worked assiduously in secret for the triumph of the light over the darkness of the human mind.

They felt that they had been entrusted with a mission, which would turn out to be the founding of Christianity and of western civilization. They were supported in this effort by highly evolved beings who directed the brotherhood. They were true saints, Masters of wisdom, hierophants of the ancient arts of mastery.

They were not limited to a single religion, but studied all of them in order to extract the great scientific principles. They considered each religion to be a different stage of a single revelation. They accorded great importance to the teachings of the ancient Chaldeans, of Zoroaster, of Hermes Trismegiste, to the secret instructions of Moses and of one of the founding Masters of their order who had transmitted techniques similar to those of Buddhism, as well as to the revelation of Enoch.
They possessed a living science of all of these revelations.
Thus, they knew how to communicate with angelic beings and had solved the question of the origin of evil on the earth.

One of their major preoccupations was to protect themselves from any contact with evil spirits, in order to preserve the purity of their souls. They knew that they would only be on earth for a short time, and they did not want to prostitute their eternal souls. It was this attitude, this strict discipline, this absolute refusal to lie or compromise, that made them the object of so much persecution through the ages.

The Essenes considered themselves the guardians of the Divine Teaching. They had in their possession a great number of very ancient manuscripts, some of them going back to the dawn of time. A large portion of the School members spent their time decoding them, translating them into several languages, and reproducing them, in order to perpetuate and preserve this advanced knowledge. They considered this work to be a sacred task.

The Essenes considered their Brotherhood-Sisterhood as the presence on earth of the Teaching of the sons and daughters of God. They were the light which shines in the darkness and which invites the darkness to change itself into light. Thus, for them, when a candidate asked to be admitted to their School, it meant that, within him, a whole process of awakening of the soul was set in motion. Such a soul was ready to climb the stairs of the sacred temple of humanity.
The Essenes differentiated between the souls which were sleeping, drowsy, and awakened. Their task was to help, to comfort, and to relieve the sleeping souls, to try to awaken the drowsy souls, and to welcome and guide the awakened souls. Only the souls considered as awakened could be initiated into the mysteries of the Brotherhood-Sisterhood. Then began for them a path of evolution that could not stop anymore through the cycle of their incarnations.

Everybody knew the Brothers and Sisters in white. The Hebrews called them “The School of Prophets”; and, to the Egyptians, they were “The Healers, The Doctors”. They had property in nearly all of the big cities; and, in Jerusalem, there was even a door that bore their name: the door of the Essenes. Despite some fear and joking, due to the rejection of that which one does not know, the people as a whole felt respect and esteem for the Essenes because of their honesty, their pacifism, their goodness, their discretion, and their talent as healers, devoted to the poorest as well as to the richest. They knew that the greatest Hebrew prophets came from their lineage and their School.

Moreover, even if the Brotherhood was very strict about the law of secrecy with regard to its internal doctrine, it cultivated many points of contact with the people, notably through places of lodging for the pilgrims from every horizon, through helpful actions in difficult periods, and especially through the healing of illnesses. These places of primary teaching and of healing were located in precise areas where people could go freely.
Excerpted from The Essenes and the lessons by Olivier Manitara.


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