Today’s Prayer to Passage will be from the book “Howard’s End” by E.M. Forster.
Today I pray, “Dear God, My path began as a song writer and a Bible camp counselor in college. My first song was titled ‘Howard Road’. My campers loved it. And here we are. Thank You for the best road ever. Amen.”
Following my prayer, I held the closed book in my hands and opened it to this passage:
“Only connect the prose and the passion, and both will be exalted, and human love will be seen at its highest. Live in fragments no longer.”
I will keep it simple and allow you to know some of the steps that I took along my path, which, in looking back, created that path:
My first prayer of authenticity was spoken at age four.
I was an eldest child. At age four, I had a two-year-old brother and an infant brother.
My childhood was spent on a farm with my parents and siblings. The only house I could see from outside my childhood home was my grandparents’ home, about one mile away.
I did not attend daycare or preschool, and my first social experience with children my age was at age five-years in Sunday School, at a Christian church.
My first schooling taught me about God.
I discovered that I enjoyed creative writing at age 12.
I began journaling and writing poetry at age 13, the year of the Gulf War.
My mother asked me to write a poem upon the wallpaper in my bedroom as a teenager. I wrote, “War war war war war war war war war war war war. Why?”
I had a healthy teenage timeframe. I took public schooling and remained involved in Christian ministries — mission trips and choir — traveling to Washington D.C., Chicago, and Nashville. I was in a Bible study in high school and was nominated a Homecoming Queen candidate by my peers and classmates. I became involved in theatre.
I worked as a swimming instructor, lifeguard, and Bible camp counselor during my college years. I remained interested in theatre, and developed an interest in media communications. I wrote my first song in 1997, and learned to play the guitar. I traveled on Christian mission trips in college — to the Bronx and Seattle. I studied Irish literature in Ireland in 2000. I taught preschool until one month following 9/11, and went to be with my family, to grieve, to heal.
My affinity for New York led me to move there after college. I lived in Brooklyn and Manhattan. I met my husband in New York. Our wedding in 2003 was in Central Park, beneath a willow tree next to a lake, near the Bethesda Fountain. Our groom’s dinner was at the oldest prohibition era “speak easy” in the U.S. — in West Greenwich Village. Our reception dinner was in the heart of Times Square. Our wedding dance was at the Rainbow Room.
We moved into a small apartment in West Greenwich Village. I continued to write songs and I performed for audiences in Manhattan. I continued to write, and remained interested in theatre arts. I attended an ecumenical (“the earth”) Christian church located a few blocks from Ground Zero.
Prayer to Passage began in 2004, during our honeymoon on the island of St. Thomas, which I did not attend because my husband went without me — choosing an affair of infidelity with another woman. He stayed away for one month, and during that time, Prayer to Passage began to expand and evolve with me in New York City. My relationship with God deepened quickly. This began a master narrative.
My husband and I moved our marriage and our lives to Chicago toward the end of 2004, one month after the honeymoon. The marriage ended following his continued abuse and extramarital affairs. I returned to Minnesota in 2006.
I worked as a reporter at a newspaper business, and as a director for Children and Family ministries at a Christian church. My first metaphysical experiences took place during the course of those six years. My relationship with God continued to expand, evolve, and deepen. I completed a Spiritual Gifts assessment in 2008. My Spiritual mentor, a Christian pastor, guided me to apply my Spiritual Gifts of Faith, Prophecy, and Intercessory Prayer. I started interviewing people surrounding the topic of leaving the Christian church. I accepted The Biggest Audience calling in 2010.
I was trained professionally in leadership from 2011-2015. I worked as a healer, which is my current profession — in a leadership role. Prayer to Passage continued into the artistic and unique journalism of a blog in 2015. And here we now are. That was interesting, as it continues to be.
“On the road of life, there are passengers and there are drivers.” I ask that you continue to pray if you now pray. I ask that you open your life to a clearing where you can see, with certainty, your own worthiness. May your prayers heal the world, and guide you on your own grand path. And may you glance back upon it, now and again, and keep on traveling ever forward. Amen.